Wednesday, 6 August 2014

New things, good things.

Its been so long, i forget this is here. 

Update nubero one: I GOT A KITTEN

His name is Scotch. Its been a hard lesson in responsibility, but his cuteness makes it bearable.

Update two: I got a new Flatmate. 

She is wonderful. Her name is Sarah, and she has just became a fully qualified nurse! She has also become one of my dearest friends. I cant write much more before i start blubering- but she is a spectacular human being and i am truly grateful to have her in my life. 

These two are the biggest changes in my life, from the past few months, and
It is great to have them with me.

Wednesday, 15 January 2014

Night Roller.

There was nothing special about this evening. Just some casual night rolling with a friend and cheep photos.

I love this city, and these streets.

Wednesday, 1 January 2014

A Cup of Tea and A Window Seat.

In the first 6 months of 2013 i had visited 6 countries. I  learnt so much about life. And be reminded of the freedom in nature and travels (as cheesy as that sounds). I had traveled with people (mostly Americans) who highlighted what friendship is.

 I commit to traveling to some new places this year- for the right reasons.

On  the 9th of February i received a parcel from a friend that was filled with thoughtfulness. On the 22nd-24th of  March i met and fell in love with a whole bunch of wonderful people, who've become like family. On the 22nd of June i sat at a table, laden with food and wine and in the company of just a few of the most precious people i know. On July 19th till 23rd i sat in my best friends garden painting sticks. On the 20th of October i drank tea and sat in a friends living room, talking and painting each others portraits.

I look forward to investing in my friendships, and repairing the damage neglect has done. 

On the 8th of May 2013 i lay on-board a 32ft sailing boat, underneath a blanket of stars and Sky. With the fire of whiskey in my chest. And on the 17th of September 2013 i sat at a kitchen table with tea, toast and homemade jam.

I shall wonder and gaze at this world and its splendor and the simplest forms of beauty this year.

On the 21st of September 2013 I sat in a bus station, waiting on a very delayed bus. In my own tunnel and thoughts i watched a less able bodied, elderly gentleman struggle with his bags, and i didnt help. I didnt even notice what i was watching until another elderly gentleman (who had already given up his seat for a lady) gave him a hand with his bags.

I hope to find the joy in being nice to people again. 

On the 5th of December 2013 I sat at the window in my new room in the middle of a panic attack (one of many this year) as wind tore up the city and rain lashed on the glass pane. Again a beloved comforted me, and everything was okay- better for the bad experience actually.

I will get rid of some anxiety this year. 

 At 5.23 am on the 1st of January 2014 I was sat in a car holding back tears. I have forgotten and undervalued my most beloveds. I have undervalued you. I have criticized in fear and anger. I haven't apologized or thanked you enough times. I havent followed through the kind gestures i think of doing for you. Ive been pushing and running away this year- in a vain attempt to grow up. I have been quiet and distant. I have been unfair.

I know these things. I am sorry i dont know how to talk properly just now. Im working on it, this year.

I love yous.

Now here i am. With a cup of tea and a  window seat. The future a little hazy but exciting. And with all the wonderful company of my beloveds i shall take a deep gulp of tea and breath steady. I am up for this years adventures- may they be plentiful.

To A New Year.

So, welcome 2014. I look forward to the adventures.

"We live in the right time, even if it doesn't feel like it."