In the first 6 months of 2013 i had visited 6 countries. I learnt so much about life. And be reminded of the freedom in nature and travels (as cheesy as that sounds). I had traveled with people (mostly Americans) who highlighted what friendship is.
I commit to traveling to some new places this year- for the right reasons.
On the 9th of February i received a parcel from a friend that was filled with thoughtfulness. On the 22nd-24th of March i met and fell in love with a whole bunch of wonderful people, who've become like family. On the 22nd of June i sat at a table, laden with food and wine and in the company of just a few of the most precious people i know. On July 19th till 23rd i sat in my best friends garden painting sticks. On the 20th of October i drank tea and sat in a friends living room, talking and painting each others portraits.
I look forward to investing in my friendships, and repairing the damage neglect has done.
On the 21st of September 2013 I sat in a bus station, waiting on a very delayed bus. In my own tunnel and thoughts i watched a less able bodied, elderly gentleman struggle with his bags, and i didnt help. I didnt even notice what i was watching until another elderly gentleman (who had already given up his seat for a lady) gave him a hand with his bags.
I hope to find the joy in being nice to people again.
On the 5th of December 2013 I sat at the window in my new room in the middle of a panic attack (one of many this year) as wind tore up the city and rain lashed on the glass pane. Again a beloved comforted me, and everything was okay- better for the bad experience actually.
I will get rid of some anxiety this year.
I know these things. I am sorry i dont know how to talk properly just now. Im working on it, this year.